After my life as a pastor's wife blew up in my face and everything in my faith community that once felt safe and familiar had evaporated...
I'll be honest...
I really struggled with the idea that God actually wanted anything good for me.
How was that possible, given the colossal betrayal I'd experienced?
I couldn't wrap my brain around how all these terrible things could happen...
evil people getting away with evil behaviors
innocent people being harmed without rescue
bystanders refusing to step in and make it stop
...and still call God good.
If any of this sounds familiar -- you're in the right place.
xo xo
Do you find yourself struggling with doubts about everything you ever thought was true, back before your life fell apart?
Are you trying desperately to reconcile your lifelong belief system with the abuse and coercion you've witnessed from people who claim to be God's leaders?
Have you started to wonder if it's possible that the people you've trusted to teach you about God, have actually been using God's name as a weapon to control you for their own benefit?
Does that possibility leave you feeling confused and disoriented, as you try to figure out just exactly what is real and true, after all?
Are you eager to know what God says about abuse, and how God talks about justice for the abused... rather than letting other people decide what matters?
...to begin gently rebuilding your shattered picture of God.
In these weekly devotionals, we will dismantle those dangerous misperceptions about God's heart that have been used to control and harm you.
We'll let God speak for Himself, in a safe and protected space where we are also free to ask questions and seek answers that controlling people have told us we aren't allowed to explore.
I am so excited to have you study gently with me, as we explore weekly discussions that will inform and challenge your thoughts together for the next year.
Maybe it's time for...
Maybe it's time for a devotional journey that allows God to speak for himself, instead of painting him with whatever people want you to see so they can control you more effectively?
Maybe it's time to discover God's heart for the wounded, and just how he feels about people who exploit the vulnerable?
In this devotional series we'll spend the next 58 weeks:
journeying through scripture passage by passage...
asking deep questions...
exploring possible solutions...
immersing into a gentle and beautiful experience of connecting with God's heart.
I can't wait for you to join me!
video + audio
audio is perfect if you have slower internet
transcriptions
in case you prefer to read while you listen, or have hearing difficulty
printable journal pages
with prompts to enhance your personal reflection time
PLUS BONUS ACCESS TO:
the SCOOP
DECODE podcast
Coffee + Convo
I'm also giving you an all access pass to my Coffee + Convo archives, a series of intimate, inspirational conversations with survivors and advocates.
You'll join me for thought-provoking topics you might not find anywhere else... such as:
how to raise your voice after abuse
surviving post-separation abuse
sex, shame, and purity culture
breaking silence through art
finding safe relationships after trauma
whether men actually need sex
steps to recover from financial abuse
tips for post-trauma resilience